The world was so complicated yet her dreams were so simple. Even with parents that made her dream harder, the only nightmare she had was of the society. What would they say about me? What would they say about my parents? These thoughts took her down severely. She knew she was right and that these thoughts were their fault and not hers. But unfortunately the world has taught her to take majority as right and not what is morally or practically correct. What envy has caused such misery among us? what made tears a sign of weakness? who told clothes define a person? And moreover who ever said dreaming had restrictions?! How did we end up like this, days driven by the deadly sins, nights passed with tears as a mere ticket to the next day. Trust has become so uncommon that every time she feels happy with the people she’s with, they all just feel like mistakes that her mind can’t see. She doubts every moment of happiness she ever experiences. Don't blame her, you are the reason why she’s like this, not only her, him too… What makes people think boys don't have emotions? Or even feelings? If you are bringing up someone without feelings or emotions that person is a threat, coz he/she’s vulnerable to all the good things that happen around them. I don’t understand, when did people start doubting themselves for a moment of laughter and silent giggles. I can now only hope my generation realizes how wrong we are and maybe bring our children into a better society. if not for us, for our future… 

How do you feel when your head has been restricted from things you want. How does it feel when you realize you are losing yourself? The answer is empty. You feel empty, not that you are losing everything but instead that you have already lost them. You lose your world of escape, being stuck with people who only think it their way is torture… Just like things wear down, talk about that one insecurity of hers again and again and over again, it wounds her slowly but deeply. You will never know the pain of this constant slow harm, you will only realize that you lost yourself when it is too late. Anxiety is something she doesn't embrace, she wont tell you these are the issues she goes through, cause for her she has already died in her world. Dreams that they label unreachable and unrealistic, has already made her lose belief in herself, like she is losing the future. 

Slowly going crazy… slowing losing sense of who you were, what happiness was, what it meant to laugh out loudly? And she's reached there where she does not know who she is anymore. Her dreams have lost sense, they don't mean anything to her anymore, as she is bought up right now to make sure she reaches every goal except the one she wants for herself.

-Nandhana